Experiment

I've been silently contemplating this blog experiment for a while now. You see, I used to be an avid journalist. I loved to record my thoughts and my life in a way that I could look back and see where I've been and where I've come to. Something happened though. I just can't do it anymore. It's just gone. I want to want to, but I just don't. I look at my journal and it's just empty. No words. No life. That's how I feel. For the past year, I have maybe 5 journal entries. When I look at that I feel empty and dead, like nothing in my life was worth recording. What is sad is that is true. There wasn't anything in my life last year that was worth putting on paper. That which did happen in my life, I would never want to put on paper. It would be too hard. Much has changed. God has rescued me in a major way. He has filled my life with incredible goodness. With life and love. With friends. With community. That is the stuff I want to remember. But I just can't get it in the stinking journal. Maybe I've just gotten too lazy to actually pick up the pencil and write. I don't know. I just know that I don't want to look back and have no record of this incredible time in my life. So I figure I'll give this a try. I spend so much time on the computer, maybe this will act as a pre-journal journal. It could never take it's place. There is just something about looking at your own handwriting. It's like a time machine. In an instant you can be back to the day you first wrote it, remembering what you were feeling, what was going on. It's good for us to have that record of our lives, our history. So, I'm hoping this little blogging experiment will resurrect the part of my heart that loves to journal, that my life will flow off this screen and onto the pages of my journal.